Thursday, June 11, 2009

It's not you, It's me

Writers Workshop #3

It's been two months. I know, two months!
I am sorry. Things just got rough, and then we went on vacation and one thing leads to another and I start to think...."Should I even start up again?"

Where do I start, what do I say.
Then, I remember why I started. For me, for an avenue to vent and release and be me through some writing. I love comments, I really really do. Hopefully I will lure you all back.

I lost my job, and three weeks later, my grandpa. He wasn't just any grandpa. He was a friend (for real), and so many memories of my childhood have him in them.

Those two losses got me down. Really down. My friends and family know that I am not one to not have something to. I stay active. (not the exercising, healthy active - the always doing something kind of active). I can't sit still, I need to multitask and I like to squeeze as much in to my day as I can.

Well, after those couple of weeks I did nothing. I sat around watching movies, sleeping, reading the gossip columns. It was depressing. Really. I allowed myself to be that way for a while until I had a little "meltdown". Jim, my sweet loving Jim, assured me it was ok. I was grieving two losses (one more important than the other). I felt a little better, but by then, it had been a month away. Next thing I knew we were off on a dream vacation we had saved and planned for. I got back, and by then it had been over one and a half months away.

You get the idea. It got crazy, life got in the way. I was nervous to come back, but I am here. I hope you all still like me!

Thanks for the prompt Kathy!

7 comments:

Connie Weiss said...

So sorry about your job and your Grandpa. I think it was really smart of you to take a break. Many people don't take the time to grieve properly. It sounds like you are doing better now.

*visiting from Mama Kat's*

Life with Kaishon said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your Grandpa. Grandpas are such special people. I will keep you in my thoughts today as I know that is a horribly hard thing to go thru. God bless.

April said...

So sorry for your losses. I hope the vacation helped you to feel better. HUGS!
Visiting from MamaKats.

Dan said...

Losing the special people in our lives is hard. I still miss my grandfather every fall when the geese are migrating. Somehow his death and that season change are forever tangled in my mind.

Hopefully you will adjust and recover with time. Good luck.

Heather said...

I am so sorry to hear about your losses. It sounds like the break and wonderful vacation were just what you may have needed. Great to see you back! Have a great weekend. :)

Shannon said...

So sorry to read about your job and your Grandpa. You deserved a break!

Trudy said...

I am so sorry to learn about your grandpa passing and the loss of your job. Those are two major life events! Grandparents are such special people, I am glad to know you have some wonderful memories!

Visiting from Mama Kat's!